beatrice_loves_herself

2010-07-15T22:01:00.003+08:00

Am i suppose to act this way to say this things?.. i feel so... that part of me which i cant explain... I not suppose to act like that i am a leader alr... why do u this feeling.. beatrice wake up from ur stupid imagination.. i must stay strong.. beatrice.. dun cry dun cry.... u must not be like this....

2010-06-15T21:01:00.001+08:00

Okies i bought this shoes ytd!!!! LOVE IT!!!! realli seriously... =)
SO EX!!!! $116!!!! but its okies =)

Back from brunei and it was AWESOME K!!!!! =)

2010-04-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

Anyways went out with sec sch mates todae... When i went i saw the guy i used to like when i was at the end of my last year.. I remebered how u comfort me and all.. how u touch my heart with ur words.. How u rejected me when u know it will hurt me alot.. u were afraid of getting scolded when u break up with me...but u didnt have the courage.. since then i have not been talking to u...

But today I did.. Its wad okies.. At least i didnt regret not talking to u like normally.. It felt great.. But i was disappointed that u smoked in front of me.. it was very disheartening.. I felt like praying for u.. Seeing u so lost in ur life seem so scary..

Only thing i can do for u now is to pray for u... Please jia you.. to dearest friend cck...

2010-04-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

So much has happened recently... Getting all this stupid feeling which I am not suppose to even think of.. u know i wish that i am not the onli one who is talking.. I wish ur more like a friend then a *.... i wish u can tell me more things then onli me talking abt myself.. U know i wanna be more then that... I dun wanna be just a girl who pple think that i cant do it.. in fact... I am in this game where i cant defect the things i wanna to.. THat i am always bothered abt it..

I feel that i cant handle so many things.. God please please make me strong.. feel i am breaking dwn inside.. ARGH!!!!!!! I SO WANNA SCREAM IT OUT LOUD!!! feel that all my friends who are close to me... IS LIKE DRIFTING AWAY... I also feel that i feel numb with my feelings.. u know i fear LOVE... i realli afraid to love..realli..

Cant think tooo mUCH!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

2010-02-25T21:43:00.002+08:00

OKies it's since I blogged... Was kinda busy this past week or so... Was rushing for the past week and this week.. Had practical test on monday.. Was not that sucessful.. Boss didnt like the refractory die i did.. My pfm.. The worst my crown i trimmed like CRAZY!!!!

I dun know why the past week so many thoughts gng through my head..Dun realli want to feel this way but why I am feeling this way? thinking abt the past and all..I am suppose to be a good shepherd,a good daughter and d in studies.. Hmmm.. Feel life is a bit messed up now..

Ishhh should not think this way.. There's this tugging feeling inside.. It just feel so uncomfortable.. Dun know how to explain...

But other then that all is well... Boss say there is this dipolma course in aus... DUn know whether I should go for the course.. But need money to go there to study and all... DUn think I am ba... Cause in the end will be learning the same thing...And the money too..

You know sometimes I dun want pple to worry how am I feeling that wont make their mood go down... But I just wanna put a fake smile to make them happy.. I dun wanna bother pple with my problems.. I rather...

I just hope all this thoughts and feelings will go away and I realli can concentrate on studies and all.. I dun wanna feel so restless... ARGH!!!... realli must buck up after i scream all of it out!

BEATRICE FIGHTING!!!!YOU CAN DE!!!!

2010-02-10T22:58:00.001+08:00

this feeling i cant describe at all.. i realli dun knw wad to do.. got loads of work to do.. i realli feel that this is so tiring.. must keep gng on.. i realli..

2010-01-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

addicted to this song le.. super stuck in my head!!!

2010-01-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

NEW BAND!!!
not bads.. shinee got another new song called jojo also=)

haha

2009-12-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

I only know the things I am able to do then I will say yes and do it. If not I won't just say it and just blabber all about it. i dun feeling this..isssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-12-06T00:47:00.002+08:00

As I was with my grandma I felt so useless that I can't take that feeling she has and all her problems she has. She says she is useless but she is not at all.. Why can't anyonw just show her the concern she needs? I asked her that if my cousin visits her.. She says none of my cousin does. U know how my heart ache? U know tat feeling? She just keep sighing when we were getting her groceries. Just to not trouble me and my younger brother she keep asking us to go back and she can walk back with the things she bought.

You know how my heart ached? It just hurts. When she reached home she called me and told me she walked slowly to her home. I know that in her mind there were alot of thoughts going through her mind but she does not even say it out. I can feel how lonely she is..

I know that sometimes she suffers and dun say it out.. I know that sometimes her body aches veri badly and dun say it out. She needs to take care of uncle and she has to do so many chores.. I just..

I realli...

2009-11-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

I know it's been since I have blogged... Today I saw with my own eyes that things seem like u thought the person is so strong.. Then u see the soft side of the person.. People do breakdown at times.. But the have to endure all this hardships.. I hope I can be that strong sometimes. but... I am breaking down inside.. I hope I can hold on..

Now I feel so restless sometimes in my work & I dun know why.. I feel that I always want to go home even it's time to do my work... I hope that I will hold on and not break down..

Please.. help me.. I feel I am fading away slowly.... I feel that I dun even have the slightest interest in anything... I want somebody to feel how I feel.. I realli hope that.. I know the Lord understand.. But somehow I feel he is angry with me.. I feel I am a huge biggest mess now.. I dun know....

2009-11-09T22:15:00.001+08:00

Today when I was going home I saw people around me.. I saw things which I thought would not be happening.. But I saw it with my own eyes I realli cant believe it.. Now I know... that life is not as easy as it seems.. We hve to perserve on ... For everything I must perserve on.

2009-10-21T20:19:00.002+08:00

Okies today CPR is realli horrible... Practical & theory was like very horrible.. My group was with all guys okies no gals at all... Got this 2 guys in mids-20 ba then a uncle who is 58...
Actually I was okies but thens when come to pratical I totally stuck okies.. Like wads la.. Then i try to control but I cried.. Then the adrian helped me...

He taught me.. He so nice.. Not many pple will help.. Somemore he finsih alr then still help me.. I so ps cans.. But its nice of him.. Finally I cans okies.. I was like the last one to finish.. But thens there where pple who gave me support.. Pple i met for the first time.. Yarrs

So left there arnd like 4.40pm like tt but reached home at like 6.40pm like tt.. Was thinking y i cant get it correctly at all.. Hmms was kinda sad but thens i cheer myself up wit a mac ice cream.. Thens feeling a bit better.. So yarr this is my super 'WONDERFUL' day so called as for CPR.. so ya..

I LOVE TAE YANG <3<3<3

2009-10-20T20:54:00.004+08:00

Okies I know its since I blogged... But tml is CPR okies I am scared okies.. Scared I wont pass.. But thens I will try best..
So yupp.. hahas... Anw I found I like tae yang from big bang now.. I knw prefer Tae yang more then shinee... Hahaha.. Shinee also got another new song.. haha.. As well as Tae yang;D haha GREAT COMEBACK;D Shinee change their look again.. But key's hair is nice.. I like.. haha... Just not use to it;D

TAE YANG COMEBACK:D <3<3

SHINEE COMEBACK:D <3

2009-10-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

I think I am addicted to all this shows like Boys over Flowers,Meteor Garden,Meteor Shower... When I see this shows no matter its the same story line or somethings else.. I will touch by the show by what the guys did..
It just moves my heart.. I dun know how to explain this feeling.. But It's something pleasant & I like that... I dun now who is the person but.. I will wait..

wo hui man man de deng.. mo mo de deng..deng dao ni chu sian.. wo hui man man de deng...

2009-09-29T22:15:00.004+08:00

This song is nice.. I like this song so much..

Todays practical test was better then ytd. was okies.. Just that I got mess up with my work abit but just laugh a bit so its okies..

Tml will be a better day=D

2009-09-28T20:56:00.002+08:00

Okies todays was pratical test I tell u... I WANNA SCREAM LE LA!!!!! the person keep nagging and nagging.. say wad one can finish by 30 mins.. cant lo.. we also didnt practise like so many times like that then somemore ask the who to mark... argh.. must well ask the big one to mark ... Dun know can pass a not... Very stress leii today..Tml will be even worse!!! AH!!!!! i must perservere on!!!

Rina came to gave me smth so sweet can.. Her mom bake the banana cake.. Not bad u knows... She is so nice and thoughtful can... Tml is her test i wanna wish her all the best.. That she can do it!!!

Encounting 13 more days to the NIGHTMARE!!!!

2009-09-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

Today I kinda found out that kids u need to please them by doing what they want to do. Its kinda tiring as now I know that how parents feel when taking care of their children.. But it's cute when they are cheerful and all.. But I really want to thank the Lord that he gave me the strength today to go on to take care of kyle... I just want to pray for agape that things will go smoothly as the Leaders want them to be.. I want to pray for aunty paru and all the other teachers that u will bless them Lord..

I just wanna say that now I really really know who are my true friends who is always there for me everyday.. Is the Lord Jesus Christ.. I also know who has been really have the interest in really helping me.. Like Rina,cheryl,jon.matthew and the pple for 5.1.... I just want to thank you for the pple I know in church.. U guys are the greatest.. The people in zone 5.. Thanks for being in this life of mine..

I want to thank my shepherd for being such a dear to me from the starting I know her till now.. She is just such a lovely person.. I pray for her that tml her tests will be okies and that she will have the strength to go on.. So jia you cheryl okies=D

I want to thank you Lord for these people that you have place them in my life for a reason I thank you Lord for this family of mine too.. That I have such wonderful parents brothers and maid.. I thank you for this day Lord that I am living this life with you in it.. Thank you Lord.. I love you Lord!!!!

2009-09-26T00:36:00.001+08:00

Wilson just want to say HAPPY BDAY TO U... I hoped u enjoyed ur party.. May all ur wishes come true okies.. Take cares=DD

2009-09-21T20:35:00.003+08:00

Okies today is a pulic holiday.. Went out early on the morning with parents to see my grandma.. Was very happy to see my grandma.. They bought so many things.. We went to bugis that area to buy some like u know those shop which sells seafood like sea cucumber those kind.. Yarrs.. The guy which serve us has a very sweet tongue which grandma kinda like.. he gave us so many free things.. He is a very smart guy.. He is 28 but he looks older then that.. Somemore my parents want to match make me and him... So funny...

After sending her home carried the things up to her house then saw third uncle.. He looks happier and fatter already.. Hope he is getting better and better each day;D

Then went home to rest for a while then went for dinner and now i am back home already... so ya today is my day...

I know that my parents do suffer a bit for us just to save every bit of money.. Like one time daddy save just to save money for us he just take one meat and veg then want somemore but think twice.. Coffee also dun wanna drink.. How i heart this and i wanna gove them a better life for them but how?? why is it like that?? I cant bear but just cry.. i dun know wad to do.. God please please give them a better life please i beg u.. If my life is not gd i dun mind but theirs should not be like this,, PLEASE...

2009-09-17T21:32:00.003+08:00

OKies i went with some pple to see the dead sea scrolls .. It was interesting.. I went with my BFF Rina,Andy,Fred and Glenn.. It was great to spent time with them I realli ltike that feeling being with them.. I somehow feel this calm feeling in me.. I realli like hat feeling..Hmms I think seldom pple also read this blog also.. haha.. that was so random... Anyways..I was very HAPPY to see rina glad to see her.. Like very long time didnt talk to her alr.. cuz she is busy.. I hope that she will do well in her test tml=)) okies la i will stop here gng to slp soon le bb...

2009-09-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

Do u feel tat u come to a point that u feel that everyone beside u is changing? They are not the person u feel they use to be.. I realli feel this hurt inside me.. Like a sad feeling.. I dun understand y.. It cant be described..It saddens me that why cant i be in that place to help them feel better or be the person i once knew.. God please please let them feel better..

Lord let me be strong.. with u i will walk this narrow way.. Tell me what to do or say.. I thank u Lord for giving me this chance to walk with u.. when we are weak u are strong in need u i know that u are everything that i long for.. I need u.. more than words can say... more and more each day.. Lord i need u i realli do...

2009-08-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

Now i realize that the world seems so fake.. That everybody has double faces or even more.. I dun know..its kinda sad that the world is like this.. this is realli killing me.. aiyas... hmms... anws this few days i keep making so many mistakes kinda sad that i didnt do well.. Its like my work is piling up... one box clear thn another one come thn another one and another.. quite disappointed that i didnt do a gd job.. But thn he gave me the strength to go on ba.. It's a bit tiring though.. hope i can go on.. To him may i give him the glory..

2009-08-25T21:17:00.002+08:00

OKies today ting had her op felt a bit bad that i disturb her before her op can... Hmms after her op went with el and fetch her home with her parents... I felt quite sad that ting was suffering.. I felt that her parents where very caring and nice..
Ting i hope that u will feel much much better okies.. I will miss u =(
Hope that the days to come whn ur home that u will not be tempted by the things around u and that u will be happy that the Lord will show u a way out.. That ur relationship with ur parents will be better... I pray that u will recover faster too.. U jia you k... LOve u always ting ting my jie jie=)

Today at work talked somethings which kinda made me think as in think abit not much.. Not emo or anything but just thoughts thats all.. That i have loads of things unfinished.. SO many..

ANyways today have a case came back have to re-do kinda disappointed with myself.. I thought can de but in the end cant.. hmmm...then there is smth i said that i think it made me like a double face person.. I felt no gd i guess.. hmmms.. i must change.. change for the better.. i must!!!!

I MUST CHANGE FOR THE BETTER I MUST!!!!!!!! jia you!!!!!

2009-08-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

Dear Lord please guard this heart and mind of mine.. Please give me the strength Lord. I really need it..I dun want to be the same old me Lord.. Take away all the hurt i am feeling.. I wanna be strong Lord i want to be the image of u that i can show pple what we are doing Lord.. Its all for u Lord.. Lord just let me entrust my all to u Lord.. I feel i can't hold on any longer Lord.. I know Lord that u are the one who is the onli one who knows how i feel.. Let the words which comes out of my mouth not be the words u dont want Lord.. Please help me Lord... I can't stand it... Lord please guide me for wad is to come Lord in work or even the things u want me to do Lord.. Please Lord.. I thank u LOrd.. I thank you that u have brought me this far LOrd.. I love u Lord.. Thank you for dying on the cross for us.. Thank you so much..

2009-08-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

today after gng to the funeral of melissa yew's grandpa then went to melissa hse... We brought Bond and Rocky to walk.. I let Bond like almost bite someone and l got blame by not letting the dog go out whn the lift opened.. i dun know la.. gtg le bb

2009-08-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

So many things i want to say.. But i just can't utter it out or say it out... Everything seems so unreal to me... Just hope that u wont forget me... This time i am realli gonna be strong... I wanna try my best in wad is coming to come and wad i am suppose to do.. I realli realise alot of things like this few days and i am realli glad that now i know.. realli.. I want to improve myself i want to....

2009-08-04T16:05:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY BEIJING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

See just this fall makes so many problems... But i believe that if i hold on, I will be able to do so many things.. Okies i know my english is very bad... Just like what pa say that my english is not that good or even fantastic.. Ya i think i am kinda lousy in everythng. So yarr

5.1 I hope u guys will Jia YOu no mateer what comes ur way, HANG ON okies....even the NDC FREAKS JIA YOU!!!!!

2009-08-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys tat i make u guys have no fun... so sorry... anw i had loads of fu and i wil still go back there again.. so nice.... hmmm i was like so careless la... hahaha... anw... even i am in this state i still will go to curh no matter wad.. I will still praise him... haha... anw hope everything goes fine.. so yarr... Take cares everybody...

2009-07-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

Todays is not bads.. I prayed for 3 pple today which was unexpected u know..Today time passed very fast which was not bad.. so yar... Hmms... Yarrr Just that the Lord realli gave me lots of strength todae didnt expect myself to be so attentive during lecture this morning and even at work it was like not bads.. SO YA...

Okies anw.. Ting ting i am here for u okies.. No matter wad I am here as a friend and The LORD will give u de strength u need okies Stay strong=)

2009-07-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Okies i thought todae that wad matthew say during cell was very good. He said that satan realli uses all way to temp us...

anyways i just dun understand why pple like 20 over dun use their brains.. Realli.. why they dun look as if they are like THINK!!!!..Sometimes i think adults also dun use that brain when they can use it.. Its like please la... they like get so angry easily... ARGH... EESHHHH DUn wanna talk abt it anymore....

2009-07-20T21:26:00.006+08:00

Okies todays was a realli a veri veri fast day for me,seriously... Tea break then so fast lunch then 3+ then go home so fast rite.. anw i dun know i prayed for Lina.. She is really a strong mama and a strong woman realli.. She tahan all this for one yr plus le just for her family I realli pei fu that...

I prayed for her and she cried more but for temporary.. Lina mama i am here like u are here for me and guiding me like a parent.. dun worry God will give u the strength ok... For those pple who says they are christian over there i just hope u act like one... Dun say ur one if ur not acting like one... U are a human u also want pple to treat u with respect so please treat Lina with respect okies please.... Dun worry Lina i will pray for u that they wont do anything okies.. I love ya to the max okies...

this prayer is for Lina mama...
God i wanna thank you for everythng u have done and wads to come too.. I hope u will give me the strength Lord.. Dear God please protect Lina and give her the strength to move on.. Although she feels that she is not gd but in ur eyes i knw Lord she is a very dear person to you. That u know how she is feeling and you know she is suffering so LOrd make her feel better and by your strength she is strengthen Lord.. God i also wanna pray that u will bless her family Lord because they are the pple u created Lord.. I love you Lord... Thank you Lord in Jesus name Amen...

2009-07-18T10:53:00.002+08:00

YTD was with RINA SOON so happy to see her la... It's like ages like we never meet up and talk at all lo... realli... I even ask the ndc freaks whn i met up with her they say one month ago then i was like wad okies... hahaha...

ANW was suppose to meet her like at 1pm at orchard station then got time worr that i take half day leave ma thens like can leave at 12 i dun know so nvm i did my work till like 12.30 was able to finish that wax up which made me kinda piss off because it cant be stick on the model lo...

So i accompanied that melissa tan hui ling to get her food and back to ndc... Took a train to sengkang and met Rina instead... We talked like we never talked in ages... (HAHA LIKE TOO OVER LE)...

Had lots lots of fun with her like 2 crazy gals like that.. I did the extensions lo... but a bit onli... HAHA RED AND BLUE but mine not obvious ... That was crazy and we took neoprints.. Bought 2 tops which Rina help me choose... U knw she is the BEST BEST GAL I EVER KNOWN!!!!...

We went to orchard to see the new mall but havent okies yet lo... So we went to bugis... I didnt like go Bugis and thn walk and things so slowly b4.. Was realli fun... Rina gt two items also... All very nice... haha...

Went to illuma then saw ying hui working so we waited for him till like 10 thn went off... Mmmm we took train from like bugis to outram then outram to sengkang thn 27.. was okies lo... The time seem like it pass very slowly like that.. hahaha... anw Thanks Gal for meeting up with me...

To Rina dun care wad pple say abt u.. U are a realli realli SPECIAL GAL okies... I love ya to the MAX!!!!!!

2009-07-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

By the words u just said realli hurts me... I... I realli care abt u I realli do mayb i shld just leave u alone for awhile... It looks like i am the one always making pple feel sad... I am so sorry for wad i have said i realli am... U dun deserve wad i said to u.. So sorry...I am so so sorry...

RINA hang in there i will be seeing u tml i miss ya so much gal....

2009-07-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

U know i didnt mean to turn out this way... It realli hurts me to knw ur feeling that way in the first place i shld not say those things to u... I shld just shut up... I realli dun want to get into the same suituation as i did the last time.... I dun want to get hurt again...Or i dun want to hurt anybody not anybody... I feel so troubled... It realli scares me to think abt wad i have gone tru in the past. I dun want history to repeat itself... oh no i feel like crying(have to control).. Now All i can do is to keep myself from thinking is to do lots of work...

There is this fear inside me that cant be discribed...I realli am so speechless... I feel like crying but to be a shepherd i have to control.... I MUST CONTROL!!!!....

I so want to be a good sherpherd I realli realli making so many ple disappointed in me ba... Why can't I just do things right at all... Why....

BEATRICE MAK ENCI!!!!!!!! STAY STRONG U CANT BE SO EMOTIONAL!!!!!!U CANT BE LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! U WANNA BE A GD SHEPHERD AND UR LIKE THIS HOW CAN U????? UR

2009-07-14T20:57:00.002+08:00

The last few days i so wanted to blog... I saw many things which realli makes me wonder...
Was on 197 frm bugis to bedok it realli took me a very long time just to get to bedok... I was on the bus which means cars cant be on the bus lane till 7pm.. I saw those cars which were in the jam i thought are they gonna waste their lives waiting and doing the wrong things?

I feel that i am switcng off to my surroundings i am like in my own world which are drowning so many thoughts which cant be described.. There are so many things i didnt realise in the past nw i did...

I realli have buck up in lots and lots of things.. i realli wish that i can go on... Hmmms... i need strength and trust in him i will have the strength to go on...

That's all.....

2009-07-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

Today sch was okies onli did one special tray for the whole day didnt do much anw...
hmms now i like rushing for the thing.. run out of ideas seriously... Mel i see ur blog so sad... i see la wanna cry le la.. mmmm. i feel kinda sad i dun know why....

hope that...

2009-07-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

Okies today wasnt suppose to like go anywhere after sch.. Was kinda tired... But then matthew asked me to accompany him to get smth so i said okies lo... Then went to amk.... I felt so NOOB okies.. I got lost... Not his friend's fault... IS I CANT FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS LA... FIRST TIME LOST IN SINGAPORE... WAD'S with me.. hmmm.. tml got the 5 C course mel rmb meet u at 7.35 am horr okies... dun forget!if not u know wad u will get!!! KANNA NAG!!!!..
Suppose to complete some stuff by sat i think i cans ba.. Just cant think of any idea leii.. hmmms... anw... thats all for todae i guess.. gtg...

IT'S TIME TO GET DOWN TO BUSINESS!

2009-07-02T22:08:00.005+08:00

i realli dun know wads to say realli.i realli thought u will cling on.. i thought u will never let go..i thought u will hang on with me but u didnt.. u say u got no rights to love me,no fate no destiny... I thought all this does not matter to you.. it realli took me alot of courage to love you and believe u will be there for me no matter wad... but in the end ur letting go.. maybe is the other way round i dun deserve anyone whom i love or like. to be close to anyone to anyone...

to all my friends i dun derserve to be ur friend. i am not worth it..
melissa i am not worth it to be ur friend.. i dun deserve it. i am sorry i caused u enough trouble alr.

2009-06-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

actually was suppose to blog abt wad happened today abt ting bday surprise and all but i just dun feel like it.. dun know i stoning at the living room and listening to my mp3... i love u by rain..

Was kinda sad so went to walk downstairs with zac and my besties black mom.. bought ice cream bought bro the very ex ice cream.. like 1.80... mind was like 60 cents onli.. felt much better and then nw blogging and gonna stone again...

wont be using the com much todays anw... typing in the dark somemore...

i asked u and u didnt know wads i was saying.. realli regretted asking u... was called a sotong,auntie and a zhu... realli feeling dwn todays.. i...

2009-06-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

okies today is not bads cant believe i was stuck on one thing the whole day... thought i can do more... anw i was happy to see u guys men... miss u guys to the max...=)
Like didnt see them for a year or more.. it felt great to be the pple who is the same age as u... just so gd.. crapping all the way.. although not all turned up but at least i get to see the most of them..realli hearts them alot although we are not close at all.. realli love them loads loads.. was fun and all although its like just a few hours at least get to spent time with them... anw...will upload the pics whn i get them=)

Just seeing u make me think abt the past wad has happen and stuff.. just cant...

Anyways.. was not bad.. was kinda furious abt the cutback,keep breaking.. thens so sians.. talked to Lina mama daughter Liyana.. she is funny lo... reply my msg.. instead of Lina mama lo.. =( Menotr didnt come but i didnt slack okies i was soing my work all the long.. Was singing due to my sleepness cuz was tired.. just hope Lina mama and Ks didnt mind but i dun think they will cuz bunsen burner was very loud...

i realli tried to control myself but i just couldnt.. I realli didnt.. must control... will try toos...

to see you was my last wish when i left...

2009-06-28T23:44:00.002+08:00

Okies todays is all abt sharing abt the word to pple.. Then had class which was gd cuz i learn quite alot from that.. then after that went to meet sab then go to the bbq...

Met up with her and sab... then bishun,peng heng,elden and nick.. went there saw so many of my click... realli miss them loads.. to the max..

But the guys said u knw those dirty stuff and all the vurlgar language... u know i felt quite not right ya know.. Like they say those things... quite wrong actually....

wanted stay there somemore but thens u know got sch ltr so ya.. kinda u know... hmms.. u knw whn i see u i feel that there is smth there... still in me u knw.. i thought it has fade away but it seems that it has not.

I know God i need u to be my strength i want u to help me Lord i realli need u to guard this heart if mind.. I want to do wad i can do when i am still her Lord.. i realli need u... i dun wan to be the same as i was last time.. I need u Lord.. i realli do...

guard this heart of mine... i dun wanna to be wad i am in the past.. i dun wanna regret wad i am doing or whom i am loving Lord.. i need u so badly.... i know that i need friends but no one seem to go close to me.. they seem like they stay away from me... i...

2009-06-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

This is the korean version of we are the reason...

Today service was realli good..It realli make me reflect on alot of things which like i am now and stuff...
Realli need alot of things to do ba.. Ya thats it..

tml will be meeting u guys realli miss u guys looking forward to it=)

2009-06-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

OKies this is isaac's hand nw.. He needs like 4-6 weeks to recover... Poor him.. Just wish that the person is me that he will not hurt so much.. see him like that how??
Anyways.. just that tooo many things happening.. u know wad shld i do?? feel like i neeed to do smth but i am doing it in the wrong way... Just hope that this will end.. I love this work i am doing but then... How??.. All this... I realli dun know...

This is the first hana i first had... Its very nice though... Ya.. just had a quite a okies days.. Only had 4 hrs of slp ya know... quite tired lo... Too think abt it gonna grad end of nxt yr and then work soon le...
So ya... Gotta learn fast and do my things first...

Just wish isaac will get better faster and that Mel u feel better that i will be here okies no matter wad... Just wondering where are u guys whn i...

2009-06-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

Okies today was as usual.. Left the house late and thens.. Almost late today.. Hmmms... then after went to watch transformer was not bads... very funny we were waiting for el to see the song by the time mel and i wanted to go toilet le.. Then ting tell us got toilet thens it was full.. Then later on ewent to basement then got toilet.. So funny mel..

Then ting and el took train back to ndc to get el car.. mel,qiang and sab took the bus infront of esplanade.. Me to took 10 instead of train... Was strolling from the esplanade to the bus stop near the merlion that side though..Saw alot of families... U knw it has been a long time sinc emy whole family is this happy... Really miss those times when u knw the happiest times i had.. At that moment i didnt feel like gng home i felt like staying there to think and see the stars...Just feel mix feelings and stuff.. so ya....

Though about lots of stuff... U knw isaac hand is like this i cried when i see him like this last night.. It hurts to see him cry... I so wished that person who's finger is swollen which is me.. I see him suffer my heart brokei into billion pieces... To make him feel better i bought him a dino 3D puzzle and some sweets.. Other then that i feel so helpless that i can't help him at all.. Thats all i can do... Just finshed some work which was asked for a earlier date.. It's complete... Thats all i guess for todays... Ciao

It's just hurts so so much... To see and to feel that the pple close to me....

2009-06-24T21:21:00.002+08:00

Okies todays just started work then i realise my hand got blood.. its bleeding was kinda puzzled how i cut my finger.. Anw i feel so so.. I realli dun know how to explain.. just that news realli spread very fst i guess.. maybe nows i shld just mind my own business.. Need to save money... cant anyhow spend le.. Gt scolding by pa.. He saw wad i was doing and ask me abt details and stuff.. He say i dun knw how to manage my money properly.. I feel so hurt.. Actually he is right i ALWAYS ANYHOW SPEND MY MONEY... I DUN KNOW HOW TO MANNAGE MY TIME PROPERLY.. I realli... i am...

miss the chance again when will it be will i lose it again?today u came but i lose a chance..

2009-06-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

Okies todays was not bads... Was kinda angry cuz my first work i did was a destroyed by my own making... Just hope that i am able to like do the second one properly...After wrk went to east coast park to have dinner with some of the zone five pple.. Was not bads but didnt sit together... gals where gals guys where guys... But then okies la... Waited at the bus stop with rina... Told her some things... And then ya.. Hope to meet her up soon... Realli got lots to say and kinda miss the times when we used to talk... so ya... Gonna have the 4th round of durian on friday like WOW... Thursday gonna watch transformer with the NDC FRREAKKS.. haha looking forward i guess.. okies i got nth to say alr... ciao...

Gotta say strong and hang in there..

2009-06-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

I realise one thing also that one person made a comment that i have to work hard and then i can strive.. Because somebody made a mistake and does not admit his or her mistake that that person was emotional through out.. I feel like pressure that wad if i am like this sometimes... then how? U know that pple keep pestering to having a bf... Like stress... hmmm like melissa tan also keep pushing me to guys.. My maid... my parents.. ITS LIKE WAD!!!but i dun want.... my own work also cant cope then how can i have a bf if i cant realli take care of myself.. hmmms ya thats it.. i must try to concentrate and i must learn to trust myself in wad sutuatiion i am in.. That i must do all this myself and try to stand on my own.. Cuz now i know that u yurself know where ur standing... anyways writing in my blog also no one will see so forget it...ahahaha

ciao...

2009-06-22T20:43:00.003+08:00

Okies today nt bads.. Had free durian at work and at back home durian for dinner.. Dad bought somemore durian i think i am gonna to be very heaty alr.. haha so funny.. so much durian... anw bought the things which i needed to get alr so i am so ready to do it... Know i realise that so many things has come clearer to me.. That i didnt realise in the past ya know... Talked to nick ytd and realise things u know.. abt some stuff was kinda shocked... i realli didnt y that person is so scared abt me and stuff. i wish that the person was not so scared and realli appreciate me.. Just that u know i feel that it hurts me that u change so much now that u are not the person i think i knew.. Just hope that everything will go smoothly for u ba.. thats all...

Just hope u had the courage to tell me that nth will stand in our way at that point of time.that i will accept wad u are and u will too... just hope....

2009-06-21T23:49:00.003+08:00

Nowdays i dun feel like saying anymore i dun feel like authering a word or saying anything. Maybe aint saying anything would be great. That everything will ok if i dun say anything.. That everything will be fine everything would not happen..

Staying quiet and not saying anything is the best solution

2009-06-20T10:03:00.003+08:00

Okies after the durian session with the NDC FREAKS OR THE WEIRDO FRIENDS I HAVE.. Dad fetched me home... Daddy was like took time to open the durian while i like bath... Anways TEST is like over...slept at 11pm and woke up at 3.30am to study.. so didnt have mush slp either... Didnt feel happy dun know whys... its like i think maybe i am tired or maybe something else....

When they went back its like they where playing board games and Wii and some like playing with the guitar and singing praises...

Actually....was like emoing or maybe i was tired.. Sms randy to see wad he was doing... its like seems like didnt talk to him for a while (at least he rmbs me have been my good buddy or bro for like 3 yrs appreciate him asking me how am doing and not forgetting this girl name beatrice since sec 2 till nw)..

He called me and we actually talked abt things which i was not suppose to think abt it.. Was thinking too much.. i kinda cried when telling him wad happen and stuff.. It just breaks my heart.. (I....)alot things really went through my mind when i was talking to him...ended the call like after 20 mins or so..

Went in and then was sitting at the back... talked to jonathan he showed me some cool tricks with cards.. super cool(although its learn from the net)(OOPS)...

Then played some grp games was not bads though... was funny...

After that nat and jon left... then we watch movie.. 3 movies
1)the guardian
2)Lilo and stitch 2
3)caroline

I watched all but for the caroline i could not talk it anymore too tired so halfway i sleep le... woke up at like 8am like that left the room thens had breakfast and went home..and i am here blogging...so ya. i am not gng to slp although i slept onli 2 hrs plus cuz i think i will waste this day of mine... so gonna to find smth to do.. yaya.. (will update the pics soon ya)

ANYWAYS LOVE U 5.1<3 love this pple to the MAX!!!!!!!

2009-06-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

Okies erms i went to have durian with my click... NDC FREAKS<3 love them loads... nw waiting for my dad to bath finish to go to church.. thens will be like staying overnight at church so ya its cool... =)

yupp yuppp so ya...

LOVE U NDC FREAKS<3 love ya=)

2009-06-19T03:42:00.001+08:00

heys nw i am awake to study i feel tired mens.. realli.. but then at least some of the things went into my head at least i was able to memorise something though.. still need to read somemore.. Jia you... seems like mel have not wake up but then i need to go on.. =) jia you mens... neeed a pass mens... its the long questions that make me fail.... hmmmm hope i can do it!!!!!!

2009-06-18T21:04:00.001+08:00

OKies i should not be blogging.. tml will be the test like STRESSES cans.. anw gonna wake up early to study mens... Metting mel at like 6.30am at boon keng.. need to leave the hse at like 5.50am like that...okies i hope i can do it.. byes... update soons..

miss beijing loads...miss her being around...

2009-06-17T20:32:00.002+08:00

Hmms this is the interview... haha i think onew teeth is a crown.. haha... or root canal... okies this video is not bad... =) okies i have to like study hard mens... even i think i cant i must try lo... i know now i can trust myself...ya lo... haha... hmmms okies back to studies byes...

2009-06-17T14:17:00.004+08:00

I think i am gonna give up cant study anymore le la... seriously cant go in le... somebody says i am a BIMBO.... onli know i act pretty bit no brains=( super sad that person called me that... i dun mind stupid but bimbo... =( wanna cry le la... BIMBO is like somebody with NO BRAINS... i feel stupid realli cant do anything properly... ARHS!!!!!... dun know wads with me....

2009-06-17T06:16:00.006+08:00

okies tis is like shinee new style which i am not used to but then they still look great... love it esp taemin!!!!!

2009-06-17T06:00:00.003+08:00

Okies i like got another one day and then tml and the friday morning to study which always think i wanna give up... i just dun know why my brain feels so dead and just cant go in... This time i realli tink that will i do it??? i realli dun know...

feel like giving up but i just cant... feel so vex....

2009-06-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

MEL this video is for u.. u confrim jealous de.. haha=)

2009-06-16T18:36:00.002+08:00

This is shinee NEW SONG didnt know that till today... HAHA... LOVE their new looks... ESP TAEMIN he looks so man now.. so cute and handsome.. hahaha=)

Realise smth their hair all look like boys over flower de GOO JYUN PYO hairstyle so funny but they all look so different.. =)and their body shape is like wow... haha

Maybe the type of guy i want is like taemin or key..=)

OKies for todays work.. Was totally lazy... seriously.. time was like very fast though.. ya.. I need to jia you cant drool over korean guys alr(just kidding) hahaha... ciao...

2009-06-15T20:47:00.002+08:00

Okies todays i was kinda lazy... But then did study awhile.. Was discussing abt wad mel and ting thinks abt wad christians is abt.. felt quite good abt telling them i feel and my thoughts.. Went to vivo with mel to order her dog food for her dogs... Hmmm thn saw this lady which has her difficuilty in walking because of her hip displacement.. Wanted to pray for her and didnt have the courage to kinda regretted that i didnt pray for her.. then ya thats it ba.. gonna study le...

Realli regretted it...

2009-06-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

OKies studied and like nth went in.. But i think i must jia you le...
At mac till 7+ then went to harvey norman with parents to see television...
After that went to eat DURIAN.. so yummy but now throat dry.. ya tats all i guess... =)

in my heart u know i still love u...

2009-06-13T08:59:00.003+08:00

IN MY HEART I STILL LOVE YOU
for all u have done i really appreciate it... do take cares of urself okies..
U MUST KEEP GNG ON NO MATTER HOW TOUGH IT IS.. WE WILL DO THIS TOGETHER OKIES...
U WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART...

BATMAN AND ROBIN i will have u in my heart no one will replace u guys...

2009-06-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

Okies went to IT fair ytd... whn walking the city link i felt i cant breath.. for a ten sec i could not breath at all.. It was realli scary u know.. practical is over... i think i didnt realli do tt well for my work.. i feel that la.. am i able to go on??.... this blog is seriously DEAD DEAD... hmmms... anyways hope i can do it ba...

2009-06-10T20:31:00.003+08:00

Okies i am terribly feeling very sick i dun know whys.. Was having headache today and was feeling cold and then hot after that... Hey hope u 2 are feeling better also okies... So funny we got sick at the same time... hope u guys feeling better okies.. ya dun anyhow eat also la then u got food poisioning.. must take cares okies.. wish i could something but i cant.. hmmms... practical test was okiess.. just hope it will be okies for tml... Maybe i shld not go online that often cuz i think that no one talks to me also and maybe not blog that much also.. So ya.. Hope i can do it.. seriously...JIa you Batch 4 we all can do it de=)

2009-06-04T22:32:00.001+08:00

I have figured that i realli am not doing wad i am suppose to do... So i must stay focuse realli.. I realli need strength.. So i hope that all will be fine..
(i am just so lazy) what to do ARGH!!!!

2009-06-03T01:29:00.002+08:00

Okies today after sch went to city hall to find somethings with el that he wanted... Then met the rest at bugis control station.. Met jonathan first then ranon then kaying then juli...

Then went to the back of bugis wen to find the steamboat i thought i know the place but dun have.. Then juli and ranon check out the price for the steamboat..
After eating went to bugis take NEOPRINT... 9 pple okies thats like so many pple la.. so cool but cant move very fast. as in change places.

After that cheryl,blake,jonathan,ranon and kaying we went to esplanade... SO NICE can... then at arn 11.30 left the place to the bus stop board 10 at 12.04am like this on the way home...

Reached home at 1 am like that lo.. Was okies i guess.. So now i am blogging and now studying abit...

OKies for the reason that i was so quiet because i was thinking abt things alot.. Gng through my mind. Just too much till i wanted to cry and my eyes begain to hurt so much so much.i dun knw why...

As i see this video i could feel God's presence i just need him so badly to guide this heart this soul of mine.. I am so mix up.. I feel so pain inside me i cant describe wad i am feeling i just need God's advice so badly. I feel tat i cant i cant go on anymore i..

God i dun want to be the person i use to be Lord. I realli dun want to be that person.. God i need u i need u...I realli dun know who to turn to anymore God.. God...

2009-06-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

Oies i am gng to watch this with my family members ltr at 9.15pm... With mummy daddy and isaac.. HAHAHAHA HAPPENING RIGHT.....Gng off soon le...
Today had 4 hrs of lecture straight from 8.30am till 12.30pm... Long right suprising that i didnt doze off onli at the later part....Tml still got 3 hours of lecture straight la... ARGH... Hope thati can stay awake mens..... HAHAHA

Tml will be cell dinner super looking forward to it mens.... HAHA but i dun feel like eating hows... hahaha thks for replying to my msg guys... Hope u didnt feel irritated okeis...

Okies i gtg le byes.....

2009-05-31T23:29:00.002+08:00

Now i know what is friendship...
Come to think of it that my friends comes and goes when ever they want..
We cant like them stay right by ur side always...
Now i realise that seriously none has stayed for me for a very long time...
The only one which sticks to me is maybe randy...
The rest yes its longer then 3 yrs but i see them everyday in sch but after graduate we no longer keep in touch...
Let see do i think that i will be like have anyone who is very very close to me...
No i guess...
But all i know that when i need them they seem like they are busy...

Hmmm i dun know la
Will stop here for now...

2009-05-29T22:46:00.005+08:00

Okies... After went back home went out again with my ma and two bros...
Went to eat sushi.. Was not hungry at all... Dun know whys.. Didnt eat that much either... Okies ranon was suppose to have chicken with his jap rice in the end was salmon... "Isaac tried and said very nice the chicken"its not... Its salmon...(hahahahaha) so funny can... He cant taste wad is chicken and wad is salmon... (SO CUTE CANS)... okies la

thats all for today..

Hey guys our friendship is 1yr and 3 mths encounting okies... We still have 1 yr and 6 mths more.. SO must jia you batch 4

Love ya guys<3

2009-05-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

This song is in this show... It's realli nice abt their love... How strong it was...
The girl could not go under the sun onli at night.. The guy can like dun mind all this and still love her till her last day...yupps

okies jesse mccartney song which i love when i first saw this video... The song realli means a lot. I this video is also from my friend edward who gave me this song.. Thanks a lot...

I hope u guys had a great time watching the movie..
Okies have to work even harder now.. Cant give up if not i am dooommmmmmmm

2009-05-27T19:02:00.004+08:00

So sorry for ps you guys... I really dun feel like gng or am i interested in the movie.
I am just tired mens i dun know whys.. Please understand why i cant go..

Anyways i have to hang it there and finish all this even though i feel like i cant go on alr. Just hope i can.. I just feel i dun realli do well in all this... dun know..

Okies celebrated aunty bday on sunday evening,bought her flowers and cake cost me arnd maybe $53 and now i am trying to save...

The cake was not bad it was okies.. THE CAKE WAS FROM HANS OKIES... but didnt mind cause she is the aunty who took care of me when i was young..

I just hope 3rd uncle knows that he can do it that i am supporting him as a neice that he can go on. I know he can de.. Thank God he has accepted christ... Although not realli close to him but i love him the max. realli to the max... Love him for who he is..

Just hope everybody beside me is happy.

Thats all for todays...

2009-05-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

The topic which we talked today was realli wad i will experience sooner or later. I know wad it feels like now. I know i cant expect so much that i cant expect things from the pple i love. That i know what they think of me alr. This all has proven what am i to all of them...

2009-05-20T20:10:00.002+08:00

I just wanna say happy birthday to beijing.. that i love u very much even u are not here anymore. I so wished that when i was back i could have hug u and say happy birthday to u. I still have the image of u dragging ur hine legs to the room the way u screamed in pain.Whn i saw u i really dun know wad to do. But at least ur better now.

I shld have went to chua chu kang to visit u.. at least i get to see u and give u a hug. I just miss u so so much.. U know when i wanted to cry i so wish i could have lay on u and cry out loud. I feel so much in my heart that can't be discribe. I feel so upsret but i am just trying to be happy. I dun know why i am feeling this way.

I know in my heart i still love u beijing. That u are the only best friend who listens to me and the one who i can immediately run to when i am so sad or wanted to cry or say my feelings to.

Now that ur gone i dun know wad to do. Its not the same anymore.At least u are the one who does not think i am thinking too much u just let me talk to u. I so wish that ur here to hear me out...

I LOVE U very much. Sorry that i didnt do much to make u feel better at all and let u suffer.. just live happily and must take cares okies. dun want anything to happen to u espically okies..

happy bithday to u...

i love u...

2009-05-19T22:01:00.002+08:00

OKies the purple line was like. Longs okies... like every stop will stop for 5 mins supper long la...
Anyways read through the notes.. super lots of things to learn okies.. dun understand somemore.. hows... hai.... die le la....

2009-05-17T21:43:00.003+08:00

Upon wad Lee Su Eun saw when walking to the bus stop she has learns that she can only trusts herself because she has no one to turn to and nobody will care. Loving a person is just so hard.so so hard. U realli need to please that person. Just so tired. Just cant take it. just a useless a person who knows nth. like el said i must be in that suituation then i got the rights to say. But i dun have the rights to say in everything. everything i do i try so hard but in the end wad i get. Useless results. I so wanna give up in everything everything. so tired of this world. so tired....

2009-05-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

Just watched MY MIGHTY PRINCESS its like so funny and nice la cans... haha...
Anyways i learn i must cherish everyone beside me... That love is really smth which can makes me feel the hurt... i dun dare to love someone because of those experiences i had... But i dun tink i will be thinking of this things anyways... TING TING... I will be here for u always ya... JIA YOU... YOUR STRONG GAL... <3<3 love ya.. will be ur listening ear always...

Nites everyones....

2009-05-12T22:45:00.002+08:00

this song i love... i am so addicted to this alr.. just feel better after hearing this song.

2009-05-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

Okies today on the bus everyone beside me were sleeping like i am the one who is only awake in this world.. To come to think of it i feel tat even though how much we dislike that person we still have to bear with it and not citisize the person i guess... walk at tm all by myself i so feel that i am a invisible person walking through the crowd i dun know whys. i felt so weird... i realli dun know whys.. hmmms. just hope for a bettter day tml...

2009-05-10T22:12:00.004+08:00

Okies today is MOTHER's day this is wad i gave my mom, aunty malee and the rest of the family... the small card and the happy mother's day on the cookie was for aunty malee and the other bigger card and cookie was for my mom... The egg tart is for my dad bro and the rest excluding me.. haha..

I just wanna thank Yi ern and Yao yi for meeting me on friday although they are tired and wanted to rest.. They shld not waste their time on me de lo... Bought them a little to smth to let them know how dear they are to me.. They bought me smth.. Its so nice of them u know... LOVE THEMM to the MAX...

Just wanted to thank randy for meeting me up after cell on on sat... WATCHED WOLVERINE... NOW I KNOW Y MEL WENT GUGU GAGA OVER... talked to him abt my probs and he remembered everything i told him.. like WOW can... after that he sent me home... Reached home like almost 12 la.. was very tired le..

Just wanna thank 5.1 for this is the cell i LOVE THE MOST to the max... they make my life filled with so many colours.. if i didnt know them i would not know how much was it abt God and abt many more.. If not i will be that emo girl which i was last time.. Now i realise so many things which was yet to be discoverd... realli LOVE THEM TO THE MAX... Wanna thank cheryl for hearing abt wad i have to say.. and giving me courage....Wanna thank Rina who is also very dear to me.. thanks for being there for me encouraging me.. thank u....
wanna thank batch 4 and Lina mama realli.. That i am able to hang on is becoz of the courage and the love u guys gave...

THANK you so much....

the most i wanna thank my whole family who i love them the most... for being there for me always and loving me and staying beside me...

I also wanna thank GOD for letting me know u.. to know more and more of u realli makes me realli happy that i know that u are always there for me...

THANK U.... LOVE U GUYS TO THE MAX!!! REALLI!!!!

2009-05-05T22:42:00.001+08:00

This video is like very meaningful the song.. haha. thats all very random right... AND I GOT MELISSA CRAZINESS!!!!

2009-05-02T11:41:00.001+08:00

When i went down to buy newspaper. Whn i open the door i feel that beijing is always at the door waiting for me... But now... i dun know how to say it just saddens me.. Thats all

2009-05-01T07:43:00.019+08:00

This are the memories of her in my heart.. Its just that so many things happened till daddy dun want to keep her. I know that its impossible to keep her.. Partly i feel so how it part of my fault that she got into this. Ytd was the last time that i got to see her. Its like i feel like hugging her and not let go. I see her suffer and the other dogs barking at her bullying her i dun know what to do. But I wanted to cry but i just cant. Ytd was like the dog day.. I saw so many many dogs.. Like 10 dogs ytd.. On friday was not my rest day either i was like with my uncle's friend bringing beijing to the vet to know whats gng on..

Next week is the next review i not sure whether i shld be gng.. 18 more days to her bday le.. I wanted to celebrate her bday but seems that i cant now.. I miss her.. Jia you okies...

2009-04-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

Okies today morning went for the food trail. And then went with Lina and get some things... Then after that headed down to expo tp study upon walking there i rmb that day... Its just sudden me u get wad i mean.. But over all manage to get wad the notes are saying and wad i was reading. Thought abt some things and lots. Abt the pple arnd me wad i was doing.. and wad is impt.. That how i felt in this place i am now. What i should do...Thats all i wanna says.

2009-04-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

okies this are the information for the shinee memebers=)

Members

Lee Jinki (이진기), born December 14, 1989 (1989-12-14) (age 19), better known by his stage name Onew (온유). The leader and oldest member in the group, he was discovered at the "2006 S.M. Academy Casting".[27] Onew collaborated with Lee Hyun Ji, former member of project group Banana Girl, for her song "Vanilla Love".[28]

Kim Jonghyun (김종현), born April 8, 1990 (1990-04-08) (age 19), commonly known as Jonghyun, is the main vocalist in the group.[29] He was discovered at the "2005 S.M. Casting System".[27] Before debuting with Shinee, Jonghyun sang a duet, "Wrongly Given Love" (交错的爱), with Zhang Liyin for her debut Chinese album I Will.[27]

Kim Kibum (김기범), born September 23, 1991 (1991-09-23) (age 17), better known by his stage name Key (키), is a vocalist and one of the rappers in the group.[27] He was a gifted varsity water-skier at Dae Gu Young Shin Middle School.[30] He was discovered at the "2005 S.M. National Tour Audition Casting".[27] Before debuting with Shinee, Key appeared in Super Junior's movie Attack on the Pin-Up Boys as an extra.[31] Key was featured in label-mate Xiah's solo "Xiahtic".[32]

Choi Minho (최민호), born December 9, 1991 (1991-12-09) (age 17), commonly known as Minho, is the other rapper in group. He was discovered at the "2006 S.M. Casting System".[27] Before debuting with Shinee, Minho modeled for Ha Sang Baek's "Seoul Collection F/W 08-09" in March,[20] and appeared in Girls' Generation's music video "Gee".[33]

Lee Taemin (이태민), born July 18, 1993 (1993-07-18) (age 15), commonly known as Taemin, is the main dancer of the group.[29] He is the youngest member in group. He was discovered at the "2005 S.M. Open Weekend Audition Casting ".[27]

2009-04-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

okies i dun know the meaning of this song but now i do.... ITs like wow... so cool... haha

2009-04-23T23:07:00.005+08:00

Okies this are some of the pictures ck helped me take including ting. Which is very nice.. It very tought to act emo u know... haha so funny.. haha... hope u like de pics=)

2009-04-23T10:25:00.002+08:00

Remember i blog ytd that beijing fall on the water and got wet... Today she is having running nose when i left the house.. I see her like that it just hurts and i dun know what to say. I just pretend that nothing is happening.. She is now like in pain and having running nose what more can i do. What more is to come? Please dun let her suffer anymore. Maybe it was wrong to keep her. Maybe i should just give her away so that she will feel better.

Now its like i dun feel like doing work but i have to push myself somehow to do. If not i will not able to catch up.

This morning come to think of it. I have to study for the next test which is module 5 which is super difficult. The test is like on 19 june so i can't waste time. Took a look at the notes last sunday with rina and yaoyi and yi ern... I seriously dun know whats it talking abt... Its like WHAT la.. Anyways i have to overcome whatever which is coming my way.. SO i must JIA YOU.. Hope that i can hold on. Seriously.. Thats all...

2009-04-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

Okies when i was sleeping during lunch break. Mel helped me to edit my blog I LOVE MY BLOG SO NICE CAN... I dun think i can even like edit till this way can... SUPER NICE... THANKS MEL... LOVE IT... haha

Anyways.. beijing is not getting any better. When she wants to drink water in the morning she fell down and got water on her whole face.. I dun know what to do to make her feel better but to pray for her. Or either put her to slp. She is a very good girl and she is precious to me although she is like ignoring me sometimes. Just wish to celebrate her bday next month on 20 May.. Her 5th bday... Yupp thats it...

Although things happen i must keep gng on and trust that everything will be in good hands which is the Lord hands and i know he will pull me through.. So FIGHTING!!!

LOVES BATCH 4 PPLE<3 LETS JIA YOU 2GETHER!!!=)

2009-04-21T22:23:00.003+08:00

Okies i actually saved this blog skin like so long ago and wanted to change it. I know this skin is somehow same with a person. But i will change soon ya.. Very ma fan that i must change...The song and the theme is like so weird right but i dun know its like temporary only thats all. i will change the song.. It's just so weird.. Haha.. I am so so LAZY now cans... Anyways i must jia you!!!! FIGHTING!!!..... And no matter what happens must smile and know that God is there to help u and he is there where ever u are... I know i can do it with his strength.. SO JIA YOU!!!!

2009-04-21T21:26:00.002+08:00

Okies this video i find so long can.. Somehow this guy is like americian mix japanese and he can sing its like wow.. haha anyways todays was okies i guess.. did a bit here and there.. Was lazy and i dun know why. But over all its alright... =) Thats all for today will upload pics soon.. I just cant seem to upload pictures.. ANYWAYS FIGHTING=)

2009-04-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

Today was great... Did quite a lots.. Slept during lunch break was super tired... Okies today was like talking to dennis asking abt his wedding and such.. To my surprise his wedding is like 40 over thousand its like u can buy a car with that money... It like so much money.. Then i told dennis i dun want to get married le. Then kinda told him a bit of my past what happen... Surprisly he said i so cute confirm pple will like me.. (LIKE PLEASE CAN I AM NOT LO) that is like so not acceptable can... He says i will find the right one and i am still young i still can wait.. But to think of it.. I feel that this all is like i dun even want to think abt it.. It's scary to think abt it.

Now time is precious.. So i must really must study hard and do well in my studies.. I have to concentrate more on the Lord and my studies.. The rest will do that later... And beijing bday is like on 20 MAY cant u believe it she will be 5 yrs old alr.. so cool... Did quite a lot today so it was alrights.. I must jia you le lo... FIGHTING...

2009-04-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

Okies this is fustrating i can't put pics on blog wads this.. ah.. haha... Hmm today was great... learn a lot... thought a lot... Now then i know that wgat i should just to make all this things better... Hope that things goes out well..=) Smile always.. I must have peace, joy and righteousness.. so ya thats it.. Kinda tired... Dun want to think le... So nites readers if there is any...

2009-04-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

I think i will put the pictures tml because the loading of the picture is very slow.. and explain it tml... Anyways Rina hoped u enjoy ur day today ya... =) Jia you Rina and Sharilyn... You both can do it de=) Jia you!!!!

2009-04-13T23:21:00.001+08:00

Maybe seriously this blog will be closed.. Cuz i also dun have things to realli write abt and i am lazy cans. So ya... Will close this soon ya bb.

2009-04-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

Okies now i am Hua Li xian with my bro and hui kian and rachel.. Kinda got afraid ytd that things happened this way.. The feeling just can't be described. Okies i am so in love the song by bye by SS501.. The song is so nice, realli like it. Hmm to think abt it many things happened in this one year at school at other places also. Which cant be described at all super scary. Times realli have been rough really.
Wishes:
1)that i will can jia you in my studies
2)concentrate on God.
3)To find out my true self.
Thats all i can think abt... will write somemore in blog soon=)

2009-04-10T17:37:00.002+08:00

This few days so many things kinda happened.
Hmmm my phone is like spoiled. Then went to the arcarde and elgene and ting helped me win this Pluto which is very cute.
And that if u wanna come find me or say this is all my fault just come straight to me. Dun make things difficult for ur own son and the pple in the hse. Please.. Just me but no one cans. Now i finally know everything but can't help it by keeping it to myself.. but i must go on.. FIGHTING!!! no matter what the out come i will fight like geum jan di...

2009-04-06T03:16:00.003+08:00

Okies i only sleep for 2 hrs and ten mins.. Now i am like studying for that test had been doing this for like the exam.. I feel so tired can.. Anyway i must jia you in my test later.. Then all is over... I knw that i must go on God is always beside me.. But right i realli feel this ain't right leii.. haha super tired.. maybe tonight gng to put pics ya.. haha okies.. tata for now.. need to STUDY le.

2009-04-05T09:00:00.008+08:00

Okies this are the people i love which realli make my day.. realli... they are realli wonderful pple... Love ya...

Okies those pple... I kinda miss them lots.. Those fun times studying,having fun those hurting moments was stupid... I wish that it will last like 4ever... That i can ask them how to do work when i need to.. Now.. hmm. Lets see not realli but this is the pple who are in this course which helps me...

Okies this is really a problem that i am really getting fat.. Which cant be it must be skinny ya... haha .... Ting and el u guys said that we shld like have fruits for lunch u say de arr.... 2 only horr... I cant stand myself being like that fat le... Arh.... Must jog at least 3 times a week... 3 times... It's a must... hahahaha...